I’ve been reflecting on the last three years. They have been challenging, yet I feel as though I have become more aware of myself, more in touch with my identity, and closer to having the faith that I have longed to have. Faith is different from the distraction that we often call faith. Being aware of joy, sadness, fear, anxiety and having a deep knowledge that each of these is transitory is hard to bear. I feel that my aloneness has allowed the numbness of distraction to wear off. This has been unsettling, but it has created opportunity.